I'm sitting down on the couch with my yummy Starbucks that my amazing husband brought me. My "chill" playlist softly in the background... and my Obie beside me ( staying out of trouble for once. Lol jk he's a good boy. Ish.)
OK... lets begin.
I thought I'd share something that I've been dealing with lately. Maybe it'll spark your thoughts or change your outlook on something... I don't know. I just feel like talking.
Which is something I don't usually do. So appreciate it while it lasts!
Social network systems really suck. I'll start with that.
They down right just suck. Eh, it's nice to keep in touch with family and old friends (especially since I live a world away from all my people). But once it starts consuming you.... then it gets to be no fun.
I've been struggling with living up to standards. Standards that society makes me set for myself.
Standards can be a good thing don't get me wrong! They can help you achieve goals and make you pursue dreams.
But once again, they can consume you. Once you start realizing that you're not living up to those standards... you begin to not believe in yourself. You're not doing a good enough job.
You look at people in society... those people showing you the "better" part of life.
They're so.... there.
You're not even close. You're not who you want to be. You're not happy with who you are.
You put yourself in a mode of trying to be like other people... the cooler people. The people who have it right. That saying "The grass is greener on the other side". It will never get old.
You want. You want. You want. You want what other people have... the beautiful house filled top to bottom with the latest/greatest things. The trendy clothes that categorizes you into the "I feel great about myself" group. Doing all the things that society says is acceptable to be cool. You're literally giving up your true self to be someone else. Just to fit in.
I know for me, photography is where I partially struggle. I'm constantly looking at other photographers and wonder how they achieve the "cool element" in their photographs almost without trying. I'm continually comparing myself to them. Their style. Trying to match them. Trying to be exactly like them. And when I fail at it... I suck.
I repeatedly tell myself I'm not good enough as myself... without myself evening knowing. (Lots of my selves going on there. Sorry about dat).
Its just not good. It's not what we're supposed to be doing. We're not supposed to long to be someone else. Everyone has issues. Just cause someone else's life may look great from the outside... they could be dealing with a world of darkness. You don't know. You only see what they want you to see.
The plain and simple truth = You're better at being you than being someone else. You're going to fail if you're trying to be someone you're not. Be you. Excel yourself... don't excel to be someone else.
Like yourself. Because you are amazing.
Set standards only to grow. Not to tear yourself apart. There is a fine line that we all have to discover.
For photography for myself... I have my own style. I shouldn't want it to look like another photographer. It want it to express me as human. Me showing people the world through my eyes. It's my style.
Yes... I steadily need to work on it. Achieve goals to perfect MY OWN ART. To become a better photographer in general.
I don't want to be the IN crowd. The trendy and hipster crowd. I want to be an outcast. They are truly unique. I don't want to fit in. I want to stand out.
I'm not going to be a society eating robot. I am myself.. a human with dreams and goals of HER OWN.
I have a beautiful family. A cozy and comfortable home. A skill that God gave me to use to show glory to Him. I have been blessed upon blessings. Why should I not be happy with my life?
I am very happy to be myself.
Keep your life free from love of money, and be content with what you have, for he has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”
Hebrews 13:5
But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.”
1 Samuel 16:7
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